I graduate tomorrow, and am dreading it more than anything. Not because it means that I have to get a job or because I'm scared of falling flat on my face, because I really honestly don't want my family to be there. All major events in my life have been wrecked with their drama, and I would really love something like this in my life to just go smoothly. I'm crossing my fingers and praying that I don't have to step into any fights, listen to snippy comments, or defuse ridiculous rumors. I trust that everyone can be grownups and behave themselves, but a huge part of me is worried sick. So much so that I'd rather they just not be here at all.
As for the rest of life, school ended so easily, hardly any tests, no papers. It was wonderful. Now, I'm just working until we move. I'm sick of my job and kind of sick of life. I just want things to get on the move. I'm ready to be someplace different, to settle down, to find a job that I love. I'm just praying God works everything out perfectly. I feel like if we accept a position, and we know it's the right one, then he'll provide an awesome job for me. I'm praying anyways.
Other than that, not much going on, just the hecticness of graduation and balancing three families. It's going to be a stressful next three days! :/
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